October 16, 2008

Eye’m Juz Shaying…

Category: Thoughts — chuckie @ 5:05 am

This is something that I am having to learn as I try to relax more in my personal life; my quest to be at peace with myself.  Outside of God…who should really care but me/you…about you?

I pulled the emergency brake on the Train today to say…“Stop caring about how people perceive you!”. The fact is, it really doesn’t matter.  It’s impossible to be yourself when you’re caught up in wondering “Do they think I’m funny? Does she think I’m fat?  Does she think I’m stupid?”  To be yourself, you’ve got to let go of these concerns and just let your behavior flow, with only your consideration of others as a filter—not their consideration of you.

I’m finding such freedom in realizing that I am a quirky kinda cat; and learning to accept that like everyone else…I am different…God made me that way. Let me explain…I write this stuff and think dang…I wish I hadn’t written that…my Kimono was wide open on that. Folks need to think I am Freakin PERFECT! I’m the conductor of this here train…I gotta always be on my “A” game! But then…I realize…What have I got to hide? I’m an imperfect, growing, learning human being. …And fellow passengers…like it or not…so are you. If you feel ashamed or insecure about any aspect of yourself—and you feel you have to hide those parts of you, whether physically or emotionally—then you have to come to terms with that and learn to convert your so-called flaws into individualistic quirks.

Now…I know there’s a difference between being myself and being inappropriately unrestrained. I have my opinions, dreams, and preferences, but that doesn’t mean I knowingly have to disrespect others by forcing them to acknowledge my views.  That’s why I love the comments left on the Train…we are all different and can agree to disagree…and still have a group hug…Right Miss Geri…you scoundrel!

So the next time I am on the dance floor…I’ma (new word…I’ma) do the Chuckie with the coolest of attitude cause I’m a straight up, all man, quirky, imperfect kinda (Who just happens to love Jesus and cares not who knows) cool type guy like that…And so are you!